Testing The Waters

Still sick :( but instead of watching REALITY TELEVISION I opened a book - yeah - I haven't opened a book since I fell sick on Wednesday... The book I began is Dan Brown's new book "Lost Symbol" - and it does not disappoint. I recall reading Dan Browns first novel "The Da Vinci code" with all of America AND Europe - I remember holding the book on our flight to Greece and looking around the cabin and realizing that almost every other person was reading it as well. Talk about a Phenomenon! Then I remembered that a year ago I read a John Grisham novel in a weekend. It really is a talent to write novels that are so exciting it captures the public at large in such a way, the reader quickly becomes an addict to the story, not being able to do anything else but read the next page, the next chapter - you have to make and find the time to finish...it's a talent and a skill and I for one am in awe. Gotta go finish another couple chapters.... xo

I've been sick the past couple days and being bed ridden has me glued to the tv. I've been Watching: "The Real Housewives of OC" Its entertaining as hell to watch but after a couple hours of it I gotta say I feel dirty. What are we supposed to get from these shows? The kids are spoiled. The Parents are lushes. They have money AND a whole lotta problems - THEN...ah-ha...Thats it... misery likes company - we are a society of people that likes to watch other people fighting and in crisis - the key part is OTHER PEOPLE - so we - the audience get to watch the salacious gossip and problems of these people and we think we don't have any repercussions BUT WE DO. We get left with an icky feeling that can't get washed away....it'd be easy to turn it off if only ugggg - IT WASN'T SO DAMNED ENTERTAINING. xo

 Mackenzie Phillips Interview on Oprah! I don't know if you watched the interview - BUT I watched it the day it aired. To say I was stunned would be an understatement. It was as if an hour of my life slipped by - the interview was over and I hadn't moved, blinked or closed my mouth (which I had apparently opened at some point in the interview) I sat in horror and sadly, judgement of her - I almost didn't believe her because "Consensual Incest Relationship" what is that????? but what was more disturbing was she was so genuine - I HAD to believe her. After the interview my stomach turned and ached - then the following day Oprah aired a follow up interview in which Mackenzie's sister and friends corroborated her claims. WHY did I need this to validate the story? Because somewhere deep inside of me I hold a secret too and have held on to it because of the fear that NO ONE ELSE WOULD BELIEVE ME. I'm not fully ready to reveal all th...

I personally get inspired from different sources - one place I always go back to is Bruce Lee. I was raised with my brother - he is a Martial Artist - in the truest sense of the word. And he was a follower of Bruce Lee's style/no style training. I have Bruce Lee's book and turn to it periodically for inspiring quotes - the above link is to a great interview Bruce Lee did - in the end of the interview there is one of the most honest things I think I've ever heard - "Expressing yourself honestly is the hardest thing to do" Bruce Lee Ain't that the truth - go watch the video - trust me - it's worth it and leave a comment here letting me know WHAT INSPIRES YOU? xo

What a Sunday - awoke to my fabulous hubby bringing me a hot cup of coffee. YAY - sat in bed reading for a while then walked Scarlett (haven't mentioned her yet - yeah she's our baby for now) 4 year old King Charles Cavalier - THEN made breakfast - went to the gym and worked out for TWO hours - came home exhausted - ate a snack - and now blogging - Gonna enjoy some Champagne and a little relaxation before we go to a friends house - Didn't get any writing done - sadly my computer seems to be on it's last leg - need a new hard drive wahhhhh - now if only this Football game that has my Hubby glued to the TV - if only it would end - I'll be very happy!!!!!!

(My new Painting) A week of rain has made LA look very technicolor - the smog layer is washed away and has left a FRESH and CLEAN LA for all of us to enjoy. Apparently you can see the snow capped mountains very clear - ahhhh - another reason to love living in LA - Don't get it twisted though - I am a NEW YORKER through and through - this just makes living here more BEARABLE. So - I'm off into the fresh clean air - to drop off membership dues to my NEW Theatre company (woo-hoo) the next chapter in the book of "DawnMarie" is being written - and I'm enjoying it - feel like I was living in a world where I knew what the next day had to offer - now...it's exciting and new...I'm feeling more alive than I have in years - and more creative. Will write more for my script tonight - above is a photo of a Painting I just completed. I Love that my creative juices are flowing.... what are you doing with your creative talents? xo

Am I yelling into an abyss? Think this blog is really just for me... well, okay - now that I've put that out there might as well go with the whole 100 percent truth....here it goes.... never did I feel more ego driven than I do right now writing about my  daily life on the internet - ughhhhhh -  I have got to stop this voice inside my head, stop judging myself and put one foot in front of the other....okay and on THAT note - I did one of the  things on my New Years resolution list - the one about  listening to classical music - yeah - I went to a piano recital today -  it was very inspiring - the best part is it was still raining and  while the pianist was playing Bach, Beethoven and  Chopin the sound of the rain could be heard landing on the roof of  the theatre - it was as if the pianist had an unseen Orchestra -  it was magical.  Only thing missing...my hubby - he wasn't feel good  so he had to stay home   so sad.  Well, it's on to the weekend! The Sag awards are tomorro...

So I've now starting blogging - but now I have TWO blogs - don't know which one to  choose from -  the other one is at http://blog.dawnmarieferrara.com -  I'm gonna see how this looks then decide - this MAY be a little ridiculous but  putting one foot in front of the other has been my motto this week and it's working  for me....